Self-Assessment
Self-assessment requires self-analysis, a task that if one finds easy leaves to question a
psychopathic—grandiose sense of self-worth that unless address poses a direct threat to ones’
success. I can honestly say that despite nearing graduation from Walden’s FNP program, I am
still in need of learning/training. As I embark on this self-assessment it is crystal clear that in
order to be a success—my initial transition into the world/career of the NP it would be in my
overall best interest to find a teaching institution that relishes in centering/establishing a solid
foundation in those “newly” interring into any profession. It is imperative that one recognizes
what one does not know, and in my case; that recognition have me frozen in fear—I am
graduating with many classmates that are crystal clear in what they want to do, I on the other
hand do not know what I want to do; an awareness that leaves me contemplating the “whys” of
life. The question that I continue to ask my self is; why did I step away from the safety of the
bed side—where orders were given, and required no thought, just action. To believe that I am
now the one that will be giving the orders makes me question am I truly the smartest one in the
room? When I bring these questions to others (NPs) working in the field, I am being told that
having these doubts is normal, and to a certain degree the leveler that keeps one focus and
ensures success. The material(s) learned throughout this program have awaking my desire to
learn—and teach (empowered) an audience both receptive and non-receptive (a challenge that I
eagerly anticipate) as I forge into a world/career with many twist and turns. I can honestly say at
this point that my hand on (physical) skills—after 22 years as a bedside nurse—I am confident
of; the doubt is getting from behind the books and making decisions that can save/end a life.
